Just a Little of That
No strong loving feelings,
No passionate kiss--
Just a little of that
And a little of this.
Some may say I look calm
When I'm actually not--
Feeling somewhat off keel,
Somewhat tied in a knot.
Someone, give me a rope,
Not some friendly handshake--
I've lost purpose and hope--
Let me jump in a lake.
In this pointless quagmire
That some people call life,
I've lost all desire,
All the will to survive.
I'm tired of everything--
All I hear and see--
That surrounds me daily,
That I carry with me.
If I only knew how
A new flame to ignite--
Something great to believe in--
Something honest and bright.
But it's all the same crap
On a different day--
Just another dull slogan,
Just another cliché.
I get tired of hearing
Someone's ultimate truth--
What has happened to freedom
And spontaneous youth?
Lost in smugness of atheism
And the Christian noise,
I just want liberation
Of my own true voice.
I don't want to be shouting
Empty lines: "Yes, we can!"--
In the end, it's all bullshit
And a man's still a man.
While the beauty is drowning
In the starry night sky--
Where there is no pretense,
No sham, no lie.
I just want to be carrying
This torch through the night
Till the morning awakes me
With sun's brilliant light.
May 3, 2009
Copyright © 2009 by Alexander Shaumyan